First-date ( a cancelled first date)

I want to share with you the letter I have written to a wonderful person I supposed to meet on a "date" by next week. I've changed my mind! I had to cancel the date. And I think I made the right choice.
I hope I've learned something from this one.





First message:

I am sorry to tell you about some changes of the plan..
I cant meet you on ...... 
coz' of some personal reasons I really cant tell you about..
Maybe one day!..


Second letter:

Dear you; 
In one way, I was sorry to have cancelled the date with you!
But on the other way, I was happy I did it, for at the moment, the consequences of not meeting you is reasonably easier to deal with than to deal with the consequences arising if the date became a reality.

I don't think I am mentally and psychologically ready for it yet
I think ..It is still far too early to get engaged to something new...and with somebody new! Feeling vulnerable and uneasy considering that the date is next week!.. 

MY GOD I AM NOT READY! WHAT HAVE I DONE!

I can't make a new mistake now considering what is happening in my romantic life before i met you, 
and i don't think i have the courage to deal with a new challenge.
I think i really need the break ! I need time for myself!
So I can  go inside my heart and have a proper dialog with it.

I wish you good luck and success in whatever you do and  you may charge the meeting that has never been, as part of your experience in life ;)

Yours sincerely,
Adelina Maria