The day today I think I am an ordinary person who has experienced a lot in life and many of them are extremely rare experiences.
One day I'm going to write about these strange events , one by one, for I want to share my experiences with you ! Everything began to take its form in 2003. But i shall not go into this now.
I felt as privileged in every way . I realize that I have arrived at the stage in life where I feel I am so grateful for everything I have received and experienced.
I know and feel that I have accomplished a lot of positive things that gave me infinite pleasures.
Ordinarily , I dare to go into myself and this I do through meditations and reflections.
I go alternative ways to find answers to my existential questions.
Get answers about health , about my concerns about everything!
I have often questions out of ordinary life. Therefore, I seek out places
who can give me answers, partly because I 'm curious about life itself, and that I feel that there is something inside me that is about to unfold. Those strange questions in my head.i need some answers for..one day.
It actually began when I was just a little girl . I had vivid imaginations and somewhat like meditations, all in colors.
I have discovered that i was not acting like an ordinary child should be.for i dint' feel at home with my peers.
It didn't make sense to me to be mingling with them. I was not happy..
Therefore, I decided not to participate in the regular activities in the neighborhood for it gave me no sense.
Then I had no friends and therefore I sought out a neighbor woman of 50 years and she became my best friend. I was around 12 that time.
She was a learned person, she was friendly , kind, smiling and she was my "guide "
Then life for me began to make sense.
My children give me infinite joy. My children means a lot to me.
My friends, both young and old , makes me happy too.
People around me are important factors for me to be happy and grateful !
All things that have happened , my experiences have helped that I have become the person I am today.
Life is for me a constant learning process. Life has much to offer. I'm central in this game called life and everything around me is just
like sun rays , and every single sunbeam there are opportunities .
Everyday brings new opportunities and I and my present state are important state it is.To be at present time creating happenings that will be a part of life's experience. Making me more human with lif'es ups and downs
I'm an actor , as the subject while I become also object... all at the same time
Everything happens at once, with meaning !
I will be an important part of the experience myself as an actor of my own event.
The experience shapes me on.
Reflections on events should be the next and natural consequence..for then I supposed to learn something
and do some thing on things i have the capacity and power to do something with.
Everything charge to experience and learn from it.
This is i believe, the ideal process of learning.
Are just some of my existential questions.
My wonderings!
What is the meaning of all that I have experienced ?
Why am I being dragged into that direction? What is it waiting for me at the next turn?
Why do I cry when I hear a song ? " Thinking about a particular melody and the text og the song "
What happened in my past life ? Who was I?
How many times
I'll go through a reincarnation ? Can i make it this time, in this life? would i be able to rectify the mistakes that has been made in the past lives ?
So I get a second chance in this new life to make things right.
To understand the meaning of forgiveness? To forgive those who were unkind to me?
One way is to practice doing things in an unconditional manner, this without expecting anything in return. It is based on an unconditional love.
It is what is expected of me to be able to do divine act to my fellow human beings.
we all heard about doing mistake as part of being human but to forgive someone
what has he done against you is a divine act.
In this physical plan I am now, I have all the potentials, the ability, the possibilities of doing to repair what has been damaged or what has been traumatized.
I have to do something with all the scars, the pains, the past traumas that is deposited on the astral plan.
Under this plan is the etheric plan, this is where i get all the impressions. acting with the world through my senses. Sense of touch, smell, feel, see and hear.
the astral part grip on the etheric.
The challenges left for me to do is to purify, to repair the scars, the wounds on the astral plan. The goal is to purify!
I sometimes asked myself. Do i do things right? or am i being greedy and egoistic?
Am i doing things for my own gain? Or am i willing to share with other people?
What about the others? Did I do something wrong to other people ?
Making others unhappy?
With my sense of reason and the choices i have , I could do the things I want to do.
But who says I make the right choice ? Who can be the judge? do i need a judge? Can i just find things out myself?
How do I know that terrible things have happened to me in my past life 'and that I must suffer in this physical life ? My subconscious mind is trying to tell me something through my dreams.
This is one way.
Then through meditations i may find some answers.
It happened that i got some revelations about what has happened in my past life.
Sometimes, I get an experience that I see visions? Dejavu ?
Sometimes I end up in a place that seemed to have been before, but not sure when.
The place seemed familiar to me ! It could be an experience from earlier life.
I often wonder if i have to go through a reincarnation.
And how many times
should i go through this process?
or will i be able to do it right 100% this time,passing the test.
So i don't need to be reincarnated again.
I hope this journey called life...will be the last journey, during my time!
it would be great. For i know what it takes.
But i also know we are humans capable of doing mistakes. When this is said
i also know that i can rectify my mistakes, so it goes the other way around too.
the possibilities are there.
Reincarnation.
If i will be reincarnated anew
Which newborn baby will my soul go into this time?
How will I experience this trauma by being born again ?
Going into that soul in a newborn 's body is a huge traumatic experience!
And another thing, how traumatic it is also when I am separated from the placenta when the midwife cut the umbilical chord?
And who will be my new parents ? could it be that they also had a connection with me earlier ? A family ? My mom as my former teacher ? My father, my uncle earlier ? who knows!!
So many questions . and to get the answer, i have to live this life and be good with it!
learn as much as i can, and be a role model to people, leaving a legacy,
Influencing people with my good work.
One way is to practice doing things in pure love and good intentions.
Without expecting anything in return.
One way is to give things anonimously.It is because i don't want people to feel indebted and will thank me so much and feel obligated to do something in return.
That is not the point. With pure intention, then you do things without string attached. It is an act of unconditional love, heartily and genuinely divine.
While waiting, i continue wondering about things...
This is but apart of life, i know that everyday is a part of this life's process.
By constant self-developing myself, my awareness will also be developed.
It is not a point to get a concrete answer to a challenging question that for people may take a whole lifetime to find answer for.!
I think the main thing is to be able to see the connections.
To see a kind of pattern to be able to understand somehow... while continue to marvel..and doing good things..making other people's life easy and happy.
making myself happy.
Coz you are a part of the whole...you are a part of this whole universe.
Your existence definitely has a meaning.
The goal is to reach the final state called
enlightenment. Some call it Nirvana.
It is the perfect state of happiness and peace.
Exercise:
Learn to access the power you have within you .
Learn about you vitality and your life's Energy ..it is your life's essence
without it you are not alive.
Renew it by meditation and self -healing exercises.
Learning good breathing technique. It is not only good for your health, it is also very essential.
With good breathing exercises you will be able mentally and spiritually
to do a good meditation.
Learn the proper way to inhale and exhale.
Breathing is a normal part of life but be aware to do proper breathing at least 3 sessions a day.
Breathing is life itself and it is essential
in all a spiritual work.
Start today !
And good luck for everything :)
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